Self-deprecation is worth its weight in smoldering phoenix-ashes and baby unicorn tears.
Published on May 14, 2008 By SanChonino In Religion

24 Apr 2008.  6:28pm.

What is it about the empty page that has suddenly become so imposing?

I've sat here staring at this blank notebook with nothing but a date and a page number written for almost an hour.

What's happened?

Maybe that's just it.  Nothing worth mentioning has happened since the last time I wrote in here.

Boring, boring life.

But at least I'm alive - I like that better than the alternatives at this point.

Why do I like that better, though?  I'm confident in my faith that there's another world after this one - a continual progression, a constant evolution of self to the eventual goal of perfection (and none of that boring 'sit on a cloud singing to Jesus' stuff that mainstream Christianity seems to be jonesing for so badly).  Wouldn't it be nice to slough off this mortal coil and move forward?

But I like it here.  While I know in my heart there is that proverbial más allá, does it have tuna fish sandwiches?  Does it have music that makes my synapses fire unlike ever before?  Does it have a beautiful sea where I can sit on a bench and visually devour it while enjoying my tuna and music?

While I know it'll be awesome, and I'm sure it'll be better than here (although, some days, I can't imagine how), I'm okay with staying here and experiencing these things I love for awhile longer.

Eternity's a long time.

I'm sure it'll still be there when I'm done here and ready to go.


Comments
on May 14, 2008


Red Sparowes, "Alone and Unaware, the Landscape Was Transformed Before Our Eyes"

This is quality instrumental music, here, and the live recording sounds great. I would have loved to see these guys live, but supposedly they're done now, with Josh Graham (the main guy behind the band) having moved on to a new project.

Shame.
on May 14, 2008
I prefer to concentrate on this one, and let what I become deal with where I end up; be it becoming dirt in the earth, a spirit somewhere else (probably hot ), or a new person in a new life.
on May 14, 2008

(Commenting as I listen)

Love the pedal steel.  Most people listening probably think those beginning licks are the guitar player.  It's actually a dude on pedal steel - though I can't see if it's an actual pedal steel or some digital derivitave.  Where'd the pedal steel guy go?  Did he pick up a guitar?

 

The tune is simplistic harmonically, but the players seem driven to convey their passion - which is cool.  Mood music, overall, but that's not a negative comment.

 

on May 14, 2008

Interesting thoughts bro.  I have to admit, even though I, too, have faith in the next life, I am still pretty happy with this one.  Plus, I really, really want to do a bit more with my life before I move on to the next one.

on May 14, 2008

Nice blog Braeden!  I'm with you on the liking here for a much longer time too. 

on May 14, 2008
The tune is simplistic harmonically, but the players seem driven to convey their passion - which is cool. Mood music, overall, but that's not a negative comment.


Yeah, Red Sparowes isn't necessarily a band that's pushing the limits of music, but they are completely driven in what they do. There's something about the honesty that I find in good post rock like this that moves me. Sure, there are plenty of other artists whose talent could blow these guys out of the water, but this is bare bones, this is stripped down - this is honesty.

I have to admit, even though I, too, have faith in the next life, I am still pretty happy with this one. Plus, I really, really want to do a bit more with my life before I move on to the next one.


Join the club, bro. You read me to a T.

Serenity, SectarcosNous, thanks for reading and saying hi.
on May 14, 2008

Great article, SC. I think you filled the blank page brilliantly. 

 

on May 14, 2008

Hi from me too.  Can't see the vid, though.  Will have to look it up later. 

 

on May 14, 2008
I can only comment on the forums.
But I found you, so we're good.
Nice article, bro.

I have to say, though...if I were to die tomorrow I think I'd be fine, I mean, there are things I'd like to do first, (marriage, sex, children) but I'm kind of excited to see what's happening with all of my deceased relatives.
on May 16, 2008

There's somethings in the universe that we don't understand and what happens when you die is natrually one of them (and probably the one that we are really all interested in).

I think the nature of energy, and how all mass is just condensed energy, is perhaps just a small pin hole sized view into the actual workings of the universe (or multiverse or whatever).

Sam Harris, whom is a well recognised antitheist, has said we should not ignore things that are considered super natural experiences be it from medidation, seclusion and arguably mind altering experiences (read of that what you will). What is for sure there is something fundemental that we don't understand (probably a lot of fundemental things actually) and i'm hopefuly that solving them could solve the answer of what comes next, or at least enlighten us to it somewhat more.

Finally let me say great article SanChonino, it's always nice to tickle the brain a bit with philiosophy on a Friday afternoon.