or; hoping the eventual calm comes . . . and soon
As stated in my last post, I've been feeling rather down lately. I'm doing better this morning, largely due to a song by a band called Redemption. On their last album, they've got a bombastic, epic piece called "The Fullness of Time". It's split into four parts, but the third part is the one I haven't been able to get out of my head. Its chorus, for me right now, is just so poignant-
"'Just release yourself
'cuz they can't rape the willing or take what you have if there's nothing else'
And tired of life and filled with despair,
And covered with blood from the crosses I bear -
But I'm still standing! Should I make myself crawl?
It seems so counter to our nature,
Accepting with grace the things we can't change;
But when all's said and done I hope that you see
that what matters most's what you choose to believe -
should I fight against fate, or should I just lay down and die?"
That's how I've felt as of late - unable to decide between lying down and taking what comes, and fighting against everything. And I continue to vacillate between these two. Oh well - hopefully some release will come soon.